My heart is racing, miles of doubt is the supposed journey, my eyes are heavy-eyed with five years of held down tears, My mind is succumbed to it's own line of misery,..my arms are turning green as my veins give out....how much time do i have?...... when will I finally live out loud? ,......WITH OLD AGE COMES FEAR- my fear is not in the natural God given, and hence inevitable biology- my fear is in that, ( I'LL BE "OLD" BEFORE I'VERY TRULY LIVED,Before i'very seen the world, "fallen in sanely in love", done something crazy, before i've achieved something of great importance..... With old age comes consequence, and I pray that by then my mouth and heart will sing a covalent hymn. The world has come to conforming to routines and sometimes I forget that am supposed or rather required to live...when I tell you am the most uninteresting person you'll ever meet, would you believe me? ( haha, I saw you nod your head...yeep- am very kinesthetic. I have travelled once, (😢),i've not done any outrageous out of the box "thing", I abide by planning, not a very spontaneous nugget....so that sums up why am scared of years just running through my African born persona. The only thing that keeps me sane, is a whole lot of coffeee, and writing.....my passion lies in expressive chat dribbled on any fancy screen or the good old paper. You must be confused; yeees,...I know what you must be thinking... Mandy, you are still young, and pretty much have your while promising life ahead of ya. ..... (yees, and am thankful to my father upstairs for his continuous love). Back in Kenya, English class, class 8p (8th grade in America )......"Time and tide awaits no man"-the constant words said to us by a very promising teacher,...needless to say, those 6 syllables follow me to this date. Not to sound cliche; but life is unpredictable, and as much as I want to say....Go out there and taste the world..., its easier said than done. Skepticism, fear, time,results are constantly holding me back., maybe you as well. I am dumbfounded by people who are aimless, spontaneous, those who have seen, done, commited, got hurt, accomplished, even met high output.... frankly i am fereaking jealous of them......my hope is that one day or maybe just soon enough, my eyes will no longer see the same pixel, my mind will not be succumbed to the illusion of what could be out there...but I will live to be part of God's seven days wonder. With great affirmation, I hope to blurt this words someday ; "WITH OLD AGE, I HAVE FOUND POWER, I HAVE TRULY EXPLORED THE EDGES OF THE EARTH, AM FULFILLED AND EVER SO GREAT TO MY FATHER UPSTAIRS FOR WALKING WITH ME ALL THIS YEARS." ( I hope to say this someday).
Thank you for joining me today, I overwhelmingly hope you enjoyed this. Trying to write more of what my frail mind is recruting. Love Mandy. Thank you.
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Familiar atmosphere define our comfort, have probably shaped who we are..., and are the source of our resilience.Well, contrary to dirty laundry this is more subtle. Today I get to answer some of your questions; You asked and am getting the opportunity to answer at this ungodly hour; ( just a side note, it's currently 10pm, and my elbows have found rest on my bedside pillows as I try to be as open as I can☺. What Clothes do you feel most pretty in?. ■Skirts and dresses; simply because they make me feel graceful and the comfort they give is a plus.I try to "wear my clothes and not the other way round";, it's how you wear your clothes and not what you wear. Where are you from? ■ I am was born in Kenya, (my mum is Rwandese), so the answer is am from Rwanda. How old are you and what do you do? ■ I am twenty one, and a College student,..my major is Creative writing, and am taking Architectural technology as an extra course.yeep. What camera do you use for you blog? ■ I use my Sony W800, an old gift..., but my phone camera is a definite to go, that I use mostly.
That was fun,....I hope you all got to know me better, I guess. There were more questions, but i'll put together another Q&A segments. Thanks so much to all of you for sending your questions.
And as always YOU INSPIRE ME; Thank you for stopping by Love Mandy. |
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